In March 2020, London Business School interviewed three female leaders who took part in the school’s inaugural Women in Leadership programme, to find out the difference it had made to their careers. Two years later, we catch up with them again, to learn how they navigated their way through pandemic, their work-life balance, their reflections on International Women’s Day, and what lies ahead
Xingying Liu, MBA, CAIA, Trade & Commodity Finance executive, the Netherlands

In 2019, Xinying was Desk head of the Metals and Energy Team at ABNAMRO Bank in the Netherlands. She had been at the same bank for 20 years and felt she had reached a plateau. Wanting to develop her leadership skills, the WiL programme caught her eye. She thought: ‘Instead of thinking women are no different from men, we could be as good leaders or even better leaders than men.’ Being taught by high-calibre female professors such as Herminia Ibarra and Kathleen O’Connor, Xinying said, ‘was transformational’ and prepared her for the next step. The next step, however, was unexpected
When the pandemic hit in March 2020 a lot of people were affected personally and professionally. I was no exception. I lost some dear ones. And I lost my job. The bank had a new CEO and a new strategy, and they decided to shut down our global division. About 100 colleagues in the Netherlands alone also lost their jobs. It felt like a loss of work identity, but it wasn’t a plunge off the cliff, it was slow motion, because we were given over a year to unwind our portfolios. We had to take care of our clients’ interests and close off this division which had existed for 300 years, because Dutch banks are known as good trade banks.
So professionally, I found myself in this valley of despair. And although I didn’t stay at the bottom for long, the past two years were anything but smooth. I went from being a professional management woman, confident and competent, to a 40-something jobseeker. I was soul-searching, job-searching and reinventing myself – all at the same time. But as the saying goes, don’t waste a good crisis! And don’t waste time. To stay focused, I enrolled for a CAIA [chartered alternative investment analyst] qualification. It consisted of two levels of about 600 hours’ study time (including the snooze time during the reading) altogether, which I did fit in alongside work. It was crazy. All these huge books to get through! But it was worth it. I passed the exam last September.
A friend from my LBS network told me about alternative asset management. I must be frank, when I lost my job, I felt a bit awkward approaching the network. And though it may have been natural to feel like that, it was unnecessary. They are a fabulous group of women, who were managing their own way through the crisis. The advice they gave me, in such an open, candid way, was super-valuable. They were so willing to help, share their own experiences and connect me to new possibilities. I am so grateful to them.
I also found it helpful to recall theories we learned on the WiL programme. For example, as a leader, as a person, you have your own magnetic field that impacts on others. That really helped: I needed to show I was resilient and had the confidence and a new perspective to continue. Now I can say this has been one of the most valuable experiences of my life and living proof that you can go on to your next big role.
Over the past two years, I’ve found two things really challenging. In the old days we talked about work-life balance. But the pandemic has changed how we work. Life and work have become mingled together, so now, instead of talking about separating it, we need to find ways to combine it in a more efficient, enjoyable way. The second is, as a leader of our own personal life or in business, we constantly face all kinds of decision-making moments. Sometimes you don’t have enough information, sometimes too much, but you still need to make a judgment. That challenge we have seen through the pandemic, and now through this regional conflict.
I officially left the bank at the end of last year. I’m currently doing consultancy work on a project basis. It’s really interesting and very different. I feel I’ve reached the end of the tunnel. I’ve also been having discussions with prospective employers. Suddenly, as I half-joke, I’m in my mid-life, sometimes over-qualified, too specialised, and interviewing alongside Generation Y… Generation Z, if I’m lucky! But I can take my time to find the next step, to really figure out the type of job I want and the people I want to work with. I am grateful for all the support I have to allow such luxury.
International Women’s Day has passed and it’s always special. It brought me back to the start of the WiL programme, when we were asked to find a female role model or a relevant quote. I came across Maya Angelou’s poem, Phenomenal Women. It still puts a smile on my face:
When you see me passing, It ought to make you proud.
I say, It’s in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair, the palm of my hand,
The need for my care.
’Cause I’m a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman, That’s me.